To my love,

Among thousands of people in this city, it’s hard to believe that it is possible at all to cross paths with the one for you. Searching in all the wrong places it can be easy to doubt that two people, meant to spend their lives together, will ever meet.

Sometimes you need a little help to meet the right person. And it doesn’t matter where that help comes from, from work, a friend, or the internet, all that matters is that you’re in the right mindset and your heart is in the right place, to really let someone in. Through all of our searching we got to sit down next to each other, in a bar in the same neighborhood that we both live in, and meet face-to-face. I can tell you right now it was worth every butterfly.

And I think I knew that then too. That my gut feeling was right on target, but sometimes people spend unneeded time in denial. I assumed that though it felt right, it likely wasn’t, because that has been my past experience. I knew I liked you, loved you, but was sure that like every other relationship, short or long, this to would end. Subconsciously sabotaging in my mind every good laugh, deep conversation, night out, and ultimately making the experience less fun for you I’m sure.

But you stuck it out. You stuck me out. You knew I needed to love me before I loved you and you hung on to that. You took a deep breath with every neurotic tendency I threw at you and reminded me that I was ok. I had to be ok with being me and you would be there waiting. Sometimes I still can’t believe it, you’re here. I guess I really am lucky because I made it. With your help I made it. I realized that no matter how anything before you had turned out, this was different. And I should love myself as much as you love me.

I’m not sure I can pinpoint the moment that everything fell into place. You told me that there had been a positive change; you could see it. You could feel how I had grown happier with myself and in turn with us, and it was exactly what you had been dreaming for.  I won’t lie though; you have always been everything I’ve ever needed, I was just too afraid to say it. So if I haven’t said it today, baby, you’re my everything.

Love you madly.